(2025年10月23日 10:40 更新)

bloodstains - dsktpgrl
illust: inkicobweb
obj: w, Luvtek
lyrics: lexycat, dsktpgrl
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this is my debut BMS as "dsktpgrl".
I've been working on this song for quite a long time, and I am very happy to finally be done and ready to move on the the next project. this started out as a remix of lexycat's Crimson Dance, but has now moved much further away from it's source material. I doubt this is different enough from my usual style that people won't recognize me, but I want to see who does recognizes me from my other alias.

Lyrics:
[from Crimson Dance - lexycat)
Blood clotting and my sheets stained crimson
I can't be helped because I love to play the victim
I love the pain that you cause cause you're so much more than me
(than me, than me)

Can we pretend we're not angels through a cable
That we could one day have a sleepover and cradle
Each other bodies in our arms as we lie under the covers and bleed

Dance with me, I know your wounds do not define you
But it's plain to see
(my skin in nothing but a wounded canvas fuck me like a praying mantis)
In my fantasy we're both in dresses in the ballroom
But the lines on my legs
(betraying smears that stain me like graffiti I know that you'll never need me)

[Original lyrics]
She looks just like a doll
You push her and she falls
I'm going through withdrawals
Just let me have control
A steady stream of red
It sticks onto my bed
The camera starts recording me, a needle, and a thread
I fucking hate you all
I wish you would just call
I don't want to admit that I feel anything at all
An angel fell from heaven
To offer me confession
But all I want is sutures in my skin so I can

(Die)
It's a loop ringing
In my brain spinning
Still the loop ringing
Write it down thinking
(Why)
It's a loop ringing
In my brain spinning
Cease the thoughts drinking
Cleanse the spot leaking

Blood stains my skin
Bruised within
But it feels so real
Like I could be
Please let me be
Everything
Just like my dreams
Never find me

I never wanted to inherit all the pain that we
Looked from afar upon as useless cause it ought to be
I stayed inside myself and chose the things I thought I'd be
A shining light is just as dark when she's ignoring me
I see the patterns in the things you try to say to me
I act like pointing at them melts them right in front of me
But I'm just acting like a clown and it's my cup of tea
I stir the mixture in and beg you to make fun of me

Crimson dance across my skin
Can we just make this story end
To cover up this selfish sin
(I'll never slit my throat again)
Become a leech inside her skull
It itches everywhere you scrawl
She hates her skin but now it's dull

She looks just like a doll
You push her and she falls
I'm going through withdrawals
Just let me have control
A steady stream of red
It sticks onto my bed
the camera starts recording me, a needle, and a thread
I fucking hate you all
I wish you would just call
I don't want to admit that I feel anything at all
An angel fell from heaven
To offer me confession
But all I want is sutures in my skin so I can
(Die)